Just Being Jamie

i had my first day of orientation today. i took the school shuttle bus to school, which was pretty fun. it wasnt unusual to me since i sat on school buses to school everyday since i was primary 1 haha. anyway, i was pretty blur because new place new bunch of people. after the orientation, we had to split to our respective courses to another lecture theater. when they called out people whos taking Business, my goodness SO MANY PEOPLE STOOD UP. the biggest groups that was obvious to me was Business and Building/Design.

i met 2 new friends. i forgot the other persons name xD but i guess ill see them again :) hm, my experience today was quite hectic i guess. whenever going a new place, you’d always feel that the place is very big, but once you know the layout and all, it isnt very huge haha. the weather here so freaking hot, plus the air-conditioned theaters makes everything feel so uncomfortable and comfortable at the same time. totally drained your energy.

everything was pretty cool and pretty :) one thing i dislike was that you can smoke in school, but only at certain places such as the commercial area, which is the food court and all. not cool.

that was my day basically. day 2 tomorrow!

nothing ever go into your ears. whenever i try to speak, im always being yelled at for talking back. hey, what about you? have you ever thought of anyone else but yourself? have you ever considered that other people have a heart too? you may be superior to me and i respect you all the time, never have i insult or rude to you. but guess what? you have. being superior does not mean you’re smart, you have the rights, you are god. dont i have rights too representing myself? i may still be controlled by you till i work but this is my body, my soul, my privacy. have you ever thought about that? saying that you care is talking bullshit. yeah you care. you care that it will be troublesome to you. nothing you say is ever concrete ever right ever reasonable. i may still be young and doesnt know much, but i know what consideration and respect. have i been respected? you say its fine its fine with the circumstances that i myself have to face. what do you know about it? how would you know it’ll be fine? stop acting smart and think that you people know everything. dont you know whats self-evaluation? which actually means finding out what wrongs you have and fix them? do you really think that im THAT stupid? dont you know who raised me? you may be my guardian but you know NOTHING about me. all you ever care was your own convenience. each time i try talking to you in a calm and respecting way, yet you raise your voice at me. when will i get the justice from this world? you know whats best for me? bullshit. you know nothing about me how would you know.how can you judge a person by saying you know them without actually knowing them? you dont know anything about me..

readers, comment all you want. in this kind of situation, it doesnt relate to any religion matter. its about being a person. so please dont jump into being so religious to me.

thank you guys who sent me off yesterday! i dont wanna list down the names cause im afraid ill miss out some and i’ll feel bad, haha. so you know who you are la okay. :D i wanna thank those people who got me the really cool toy haha. i LOVE it! everybody has been dreaming to have one and my goodness, i have it! this post is for the people i didnt get to write letters to and those who contributed the gift. :) those got letter from me already no need la okay hahaha. i have nothing to say but thank you :) everythings written in the letter.

Carmen Chu - trumpet girl :D thank u so much for the gift! i hope you’ll take care. i know you’ll grow up into a wonderful woman and a wise cell intern. continue to walk closer with Him! i hope to see you being a cell leader when i come back, hehe. always organize your time well between home work, school work and church. SING LOUDER BAAAHHHHH HAIYO. you dont need the mic to amplify your voice. let your voice roar!

Brian Goh - YOUU!! go cell group more often lehhh. always hilangkan diri. we have to wait for decades to see you again in cell group haha. take care! and thank you so much for the gift! you may be busy, but always make time for Him. :)

Wilkins - doctor!!! finally you met my brother after so maaaaany years. i admire how you are able the connect to the younger ones, like me. wish you all the best in your career and hope to visit your clinic soon! :D oh and thank you for the gift!

Jonathan Cheah - oi, kpop fan haha. known you for so many years, yet i still dont know you well. sorry i didnt get to know you more when i was still in KK. take care! and keep drummin’! continue to go cell group ya. thanks for the gift :D

Jonathan Chieng - MUSCLE MAAAANNN. hehehehe. like joncheah, i wasnt able to know you more though you were in the same cell group as me. i hope you’ll continue to go cell group. e3 needs more members after a few of us has left haha. thank you so much for the gift!

Selwyn - and like the above, i didnt get to know you well either after knowing you for such a long time. haha you 3 are like triplets. omg congrats on you SPM results man :D im sure your parents are proud of you. try to balance your time between school and church. go cell group baaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh. hehehehe. take care and God Bless!

Francisca - yer!!!!! so sad oh. i was only able to get to know you on the last couple days in KK, after knowing you for so long. on those couple days i really did enjoy my time with you. :) you are full of laughter and positivity. woo the time with Ivy Lo and Jess Leong was fun! working with you during the times of YA was really fun. you’re an easy person to talk to. :) concerning your studies, im sure you’ll be able to figure something out, because im waiting for you to bring my RECHURCH tshirt for meeee! hahaha. thank you so much for the gift! <3

Derek & Ple - i know how Derek can pay for the gift la, but PLEEEE??? you pakai your debit card again ka? haha i was syok to see your name man. so faraway still can get gifts from you. oh and Derek, i got the message man. crystal clear |||||||||||. you two love birds dont be so sad! you guys are gonna meet again soon baaahh. :) thanks so much for the gift! <3

Victor Lee - oi. idk what to say to you man hahaha. study well! IS banyak cinabengs you can tahan one la kan. got David lagi and giant. thank you so much for the gift!

Sheena Wong - uuuuiiii sopoooo!! got license fly here fly there already la isit? didnt come youth one yerrrr.. didnt get to see you for the last time. take care ah! dont always go clubbing :P thank you so much the gift! <3

Eric Chong - tai jiaa, apa khabar man. long time didnt see you already. hows IS? i heard you’re coming to taylor’s too? cannot tahan IS ka? hahahaha. if you are then hope to see you soon la :D thank you so much for the gift! aiyaaa didnt ask you drive me around after you got your license. u pindah your car here la. bring me out zoom zoom. :D

Darren Ching - was surprised to see your name on the card hahaha. hai! thank you so much for the gift! it must have been expensive right. omg ive known you since primary 1 right? that’s ages ago! and we were in the same class till form 5! well, a couple years we werent la but yeah. you get me haha. take care! :)

Raymond Chong - Raymond! thank you so much for the gift! i didnt know you’re in IS haha. take care! and stop letting Dean bully you! xD

Devedddddd - SRILANKEN BOY. haaaai i miss you ohhhh. got gf already no need to care about jemeh la? thank you so much for the gift! dont go clubbing all the time la. stay home study! :P SERANTA FOLAIF. <3

Phoebe - haaaaiii :D thank you so much for the gift! hows IS ah? like no news from you one hahahaha. your section in the card paling colorful man. xD study hard and God Blesssss!!! :D

Jeson Huang - heeee cute boy. big boy already looo. im happy i was able to see you grow in Eklektos. :) i think you were the only form 2 that i can actually talk to like an adult. maybe cause you’re smart and you’re apples brother haha. im sure you’ll be a great cell leader! manage your time well ah. dont always play game :P take care and God Bless!

just hours away till i have to go the airport already. what do i feel? i feel a sense of grief towards my bed, my house, my friends, my family. why does it have to rain todaayyyyyyyy….. it makes the mood even more melancholic. :/

i feel a sense of excitement at the same time for all the new adventures i’ll be facing. new bed, new house, new friends. fear will always be lurking to pounce right at you, but i guess thats the whole idea of challenges right? ive been quite quiet the whole day because i dont know what to say. saying ‘bye’ or ‘see you soon’ makes me not wanna leave.

being in Eklektos has made me stronger. i finally feel like i have a purpose in life rather than just living to keep alive each day. i was in various ministry when i first went Eklektos, you name it man. hahaha. im glad i was able to experience every ministry before my journey in KK ends. what i am today is by everyone in Eklektos who has made a spark in my life, even just a little. most importantly, i was nothing without Him.

i dont know who will be sending me off later, but whoever you guys are, i really really appreciate it because i didnt know anyone would send me off, besides my cell group hehe. im sorry i didnt get to know some of you guys enough. please serve in Eklektos with all the talents and gifts you have.

God Bless! :)

SPM results came out today. i’ll just be blunt: 3A 6B thats what i got. i reckon its not bad though, despite the overload of B’s. i was expecting maybe a C for my Physics. i guess God heard my prayers :) im quite satisfied for what i got. i didnt cry, i didnt frown nor got angry. what can they change anything right? it may appear to be a poor result for some people, it doesnt matter to me haha.

im very grateful for my siblings and mum. they support me in every way possible. i admit that my results are not brilliant, yet they praise me and give gifts to me. how often are you gifted with family members like these? :)

/// it may seem like im a failure to you compared to the others, but nonetheless i’ll prove you wrong again. so wrong that you have your tongue-tied. i will never be inferior to you again.

i prefer to cheer. :)

time to story-tell about my CNY! everyday is a holiday to me now, but CNY got to be at Melaka so it really felt like a holiday. when there’s holiday, there’s always SHOPPINGG!!!! :D of course, i didnt take pictures of ALLL that i’ve bought, but here are some things i encountered and found them very interesting.

not to mention pictures of my lovely baby cousins. i didn’t take picture with every cousins though. sad. :( i went to a pet shop (thank goodness no fish but i wont enter if there was anyway), and there were really cute creatures. omg have you ever seen a Chinchilla? those crabby things up-close? they were so cool. :D

when you shop, u MUST feel hungry right? i ate this really yummy potato thing. i dont know what is it called obviously. they cut the potato into spirals, skewed and seasoned them. my goodness, they were DELICIOUS.

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