have you ever felt a pain thats so numb, you cannot tolerate? like, theres pain everywhere around you yet when you touch it, you say, “no, thats not it. its coming from some where else." pain at your head, your throat, your arms, legs. none are the areas you want to find. you look for things to do to past the time, to distract the pain. they fade away slowly, but come striking back when your time is empty. it gives greater pain, to substitute the times when it didnt hurt. you search for an antidote, anything that will cast it away. one after another, they end up being useless. all you can do, is to wait for time to saunter by and see what the pain has install for you..
Romans 5:3-5 (New Living Translation)
3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.
embracing the new year. its odd to feel that i dont need to prepare for school anymore. well, at least not in January. no more last minute buying uniforms and sigh at the signs “Back To School :)”. no more first day of school lecture about the same thing: shoes, uniforms, hair and all the other rules. i mean, im happy i dont need to do those things anymore, cause first day of school always gives me the chills. :S
whats odd is that now, i have quite a lot of free time and the goal is different. usually, the goal was related to school activities, such as: completing homework in time, follow the rules as much as possible, impress teachers, do well in co-curriculum, etc. now, im only awaiting for they day where is my turn to leave. after going to the airports countless of times, waving goodbye at the people i love that i might not see that often anymore makes me really upset. inversely, i feel kinda glad that now its my turn to leave and people will feel how i do.
year 2011, what do you have installed for me?
anyways, IM SELLING BOOKS. will post up the pictures soon of the books im selling. :)